Faithful in My Faithlessness

This last week, I have been in staff training up at Northland Camp. I really was looking forward to coming to camp (since like last september:) But seriously, I knew coming into this past week that I had a lot of areas in which God needed to work in my life. I could hardly wait to get under the dynamic preaching of God's Word--Not that at my school or church the preaching isn't good. It's great! But there is just something different about camp preaching. If you have any questions, just listen to Brother Steve Pettit or Will Galkin for 10 days or sessions! Then I think you would understand.
Anyways, all this to say-God has been showing me a lot lately. It's sort of hard to describe. I guess it sorta feels like God, as the surgeon, has opened me up and every weakness and sin pattern has been revealed. The mirror of God's Word is beginning to show me my dirty, rotten pride and selfish will. After like 45 sessions...things begin to come clear.
At first, I was readily accepting God's conviction on my heart. However, it sorta seemed like every message, God had something new to teach me. By the end of the first week, I felt completely overwhelmed with my inabilities and weaknesses. I could describe each area in which I fall short, but to spare you the details, I will just give you a brief overview of what God taught me and is still teaching me. I couldn't help but feel discouraged and helpless with my state...but you know, I am just that--helpless.
During one of the messages, it was said, "Even when I am faithless, God is still faithful." After all the direct preaching and "Complete Spiritual" (hang on!), I was feeling pretty faithless. I mean, I was thankful for God's working, yet at the same time, it seemed impossible to change everything to be Christ-like. Even though there seems like so much further to go in my process of sanctification, God has given promises of hope. My pride keeps me depending on myself to change--Humility can only keep me dependent on God to change me. Here I remember my position in Christ: As a believer, I am transformed into Christ's image. I no longer have to sin-it doesn't have to have power over me.
2 Peter 1 explains our position in Christ. This week in my devotions, I have been meditating on this passage and it is rich! It's like it all clicked! God has given us everything that pertains to life and godliness. Everything! Everything that is needed for change and sanctification can be found in His Word. The process is never easy, but I would never have it any other way. And though it kinda hurts when my pride is so openly revealed in my heart, I look forward to how God will work in me and change me.
I know this post is a little different, and it might not quite make sense, but it is exactly what God has been teaching me lately, in a nutshell:) Please pray for us as camp starts this coming Monday with Family Camp.